i have a really amazing opportunity… something that would be incredible and life changing. i just really want it to happen. and i cannot stop thinking about it and how much i want to get out of here! i care so deeply for many people and many people disappoint me. i question why i am so closed off and then i am reminded… i’m sick of being disappointed and i am super super super ready for a change of scenery and to be completely submerged in work. this is a post that doesn’t matter and probably won’t be read.

i just want it. it could turn everything around. it would change my life completely. it would help me make sense of everything.