meh.

i’m sad. i’m sad. i’m sad. everything is gray. i don’t remember how to feel anything but sad or lonely or worthless. i don’t remember how to function as a human being. nothing feels right, nothing at all.

i need to leave. i need to get out of here. i need people in my life who aren’t sick of my stupid shit. i need people in my life who see when i’m slipping.

i need to be forced to do stuff, to go out. can someone just force me?

can someone go on tour? soon? i feel ok when people are on tour.

i don’t want to be myself anymore, it’s just too hard.

fuck.